I wrote this last week as an assignment for my Fantasy Literature class. I figured I might as well post it here and see if it gets any viewers. Maybe, maybe not. Feel free to comment and leave constructive criticism below.
The
Bear in the Snow
By Rachel Lamine
Mist gathered
across the lake, hovering in thick sheets as if the water had turned to milk.
It was said that my ancestors had first beheld the lake as I saw it now, and
named it Hvítvatn, White
Lake.
A
bitter wind pierced my cheeks, and I drew the seal-fur lined cloak more closely
around my body. Something moved by the water below. I paused, squinting into
the predawn haze. A shaggy bear, so white I had almost missed it amid the water
and mist, plodded lazily along the shore. Frost crunched beneath my boots as I
leaned forward. I had never seen a white bear in my life—they never wandered
this far south, and certainly not at this time of year.
I
held my breath, enchanted by the majesty of the lone figure as it lumbered,
unconscious of my presence, along the stony beach. Traders from the north told
strange tales of the white bears that ruled the unpopulated ice sheets, and
even stranger tales of the ghostly white wolves that raged in the snow
encrusted trees.
An
icy wind whipped around my skirts and caught at my hood. The bear stopped its
wallowing gait, lifted its black nose, and turned its head toward me.
I froze in the
weight of its heady gaze. Even across the distance, I could see that there was
an intelligence brimming in its eyes. I took an uneasy step backward, unable to
tear my eyes from the bear’s. A strange, unearthly vibration shuddered through
my body. After what felt like an eternity, the bear looked away, and trundled
off into the trees.
Stunned, I stood
for a few moments at the top of the hill, feeling as if I had been knocked in
the chest with the flat of an axe. Then I was running, retracing my steps down
the hill toward my father’s hall, the enormous wooden longhouse erupting
imperiously from the hill by the lake. Hallgeir had to know what I had seen,
and he had to know before Thorbrand found out.
~ * ~
“You saw a white bear?” Hallgeir asked
skeptically. My brother’s eyebrows receded into his hairline in disbelief. “Elína, are you sure about that?”
He cast an impatient
glance to the front of the hall where our father was seating himself at the
head table. The sickly man reached for his drinking horn, which my cousin
Thorbrand put willingly against his palm. Hallgeir’s jaw tightened. Since the
skirmish with Eyvind Raven-Beak that had left our two eldest brothers dead and
our father a ghost of his former self, there had been no definite consensus as
to who would become Jarl when my father passed. If it hadn’t been for
Thorbrand, as the returning warriors told it, our father might never have
returned alive and White Lake would have been lost. There was a great faction
that doubted Hallgeir’s ability to rule, and entirely trusted Thorbrand.
“I’m sure,” I
insisted, ignoring the black look one of the women cast in our direction. “It
was down by the lake at dawn. It looked at me more intelligently than I thought
a bear could.”
“Mmm,” Hallgeir
murmured noncommittally. His eyes narrowed as Thorbrand leaned in close to hear
something our father said. Hallgeir shook his head and distractedly rubbed his
hand along the thick, rope-like scar that patterned his right arm. “What was
that?”
“The white bear,”
I repeated, annoyed. “You know the tales. If you see a white bear, the white
wolves are never far behind.”
Hallgeir turned
his full attention to me now, his mouth drawn in a perplexed frown. “You’re
making that up,” he decided dismissively, “no one has seen a white wolf in a
hundred years, let alone a white bear.”
Our eyes strayed
to the ornately carved chair at the head of the hall. Its high back was draped
with a magnificent, snowy fur that almost seemed to glow in the enclosed space.
A massive, snarling head was mounted on the back of the chair, its glazed eyes
watching over the hall as it had for the hundred years since our father’s
father, Sigmund Wolf-Slayer, had returned from the north, a hero.
“You might start looking, you know,” I
pressed, “before Thorbrand gets word and tries the same thing. It would prove
your right to be Jarl.”
Hallgeir opened
his mouth, but whatever he was about to say was lost in the commotion by the
door. “They have been seen!” someone
shouted. Two young retainers marched down the length of the hall, and dropped
to their knees before my father’s table. A few of the children jostled forward
to get a better look.
“What has been
seen?” Thorbrand asked when my father only lifted a trembling hand toward the
young men.
“The white wolves.
The ghostly host of the north!”
I glanced at
Hallgeir. Our eyes met, and his hardened with a fierce determination. Hallgeir,
I knew, must go on the hunt. And I, who had seen the white bear, knew I had to
go with him.
~ * ~
“Oh, no.” Hallgeir
groaned when I approached him in the breeches and tunic I had snagged from
beneath his sleeping bench in the hall, “you are not coming with me.”
“Yes, I am,” I
insisted, touching the knife secured in the belt at my waist.
“I can’t protect
you on this quest,” Hallgeir asserted firmly. “I need to move quickly and
silently, and I am leaving immediately. Thorbrand may already have left. No time
for you to saddle a horse.” He slung his bow across his back and swung onto his
mount.
Panic, warm and
sour, rose in the back of my throat. I needed to go with him. Something had
changed when the bear’s eyes met mine. In that moment by the lake I had been
sure that I was being called forth to something more, to some unknown quest.
Now I was sure that this was it.
A small crowd had
gathered to see my brother off, their faces shining with a hope that he would
not fail them. “May you remain safe on your journey, Hallgeir Thorsteinson,” an
old retainer of our father’s said, his voice full of emotion, “and return to us
to claim your rightful place.”
“Thank you.”
Hallgeir gave a slow nod. “I am grateful to you all. Take care of Elína while I am gone.”
Ignoring my
pleading cries, my brother kneed his horse into a canter and the hunting party
disappeared around a bend in the road. A lump rose in my throat, and I perched
on the wooden fence by the horse barn as the crowd dispersed, peering into the
shadowy forest.
It could be weeks
before I saw them again, maybe months. I wondered how long it would be before
they had to sell their mounts and journey into the north on foot. The wolves
would never come near such noisy beasts.
“That
gods-forsaken boy will never do it,” a low voice sneered behind me. I clenched
my teeth and slid off the fence. Thorunn, Thorbrand’s youngest sister, stood
with her arms crossed over her broad chest, her mouth tipped in a scornful
grin.
“Be quiet,
Thorunn,” I sighed wearily.
The larger girl
straightened hostilely. “Your weak-skinned brother will never be Jarl, not
against Thorbrand. Not after his great display of valor against Raven-Beak.
Your brother has never done anything remotely heroic in his life. He doesn’t
deserve the title. He doesn’t have the strength to rule as Thorbrand does.”
“He might not have
the strength of Thorbrand,” I snapped, “but he is ten times the man your
brother will ever be. I’ve heard stories of what Thorbrand did in Raven-Beak’s
land.”
“War demands
cruelty,” Thorunn hissed. “He did nothing the others did not.”
“Disemboweling
babies and hanging them by their entrails for their mothers to watch is not
what war demands!” I exploded. “I have seen him cut open a living dog just for
the fun of seeing it in pain. Is that the kind of man you want ruling in my
brother’s stead?”
“I don’t want to
hear another word!” Thorunn shrieked. “Get out of here right now or I will
wring your neck, you filthy witch!”
I didn’t wait to
see what she would do. I took off for the trees.
The dark blues of
the evergreens blended with the white-gray of winter-stripped trees as I ran,
vaulting over fallen branches, my boots padding on the soft needles that
carpeted the earth. I slowed to a walk, panting as the cold air seared down my
throat. The trees I had known my entire life whirled around me in a strange,
ethereal dance, their crackling fingers reaching as if to grab me. I grunted in
frustration, pushing a stray hair out of my eyes.
Something moved in
the bracken, and I froze as a massive white bulk materialized among the tree
trunks. The bear from the lake plodded into my path and paused, its black nose
twitching as it bowed its ancient eyes toward me. My tongue turned to stone.
“Your brother
rides north, young one, and you do not.” I didn’t even blink when it spoke, a
voice of infinite wisdom that made its way inside my head and echoed through my
whole being. It was the most natural thing in the world that this bear claimed
intelligence.
I nodded numbly.
My leaden tongue stumbled over the words, “He rides north in search of the
white wolves. To slay one and wear its skin would win him his rightful title to
our father’s lands. No one would dispute his claim.”
“So I know,” it
said, and I noticed its massive paws, equipped with claws the length of my
forearm. The whiteness of its coat turned all other colors in the wood to ash.
“I have come because you must be with him. I am Ásbjörn, a king of the north, and a herder of the wolves. You must
come with me and play your part in what is to happen between your brother and
your cousin.”
“But what is to
happen?” I asked, excitement fluttering in my stomach.
The bear’s
shoulders slumped in what I thought must be a sigh. “I do not know the answer
to that question. I simply know that you must be there. You must help your
brother. Will you come?”
Would I come? I
stared at the magnificent animal before me, from its long, black claws to the
razor-like teeth, and wondered that I did not feel afraid. Slowly, reverently,
I nodded.
“Then climb on my
back,” it said.
I moved gingerly
toward the great animal, and lay a hand against its side. My hand sunk deep
into its thick coat, coarse, but warm and comforting. I gripped its fur firmly
between my fingers, and then I was on its back, burying into the warmth of its
broad, powerful body. A breathless exhilaration swept across my frame as the
bear climbed to its feet and said, “hold on.”
The trees rushed
past in a dark shadow as the bear loped faster and faster, and the sky became
larger and brighter until all I could see were the stars, millions and millions
of pinpricks of light twinkling into infinity. For a moment, all was still, and
it was as if I had ceased moving and become part of the song of the stars.
Another moment, and the earth returned, and the wind rushed past my ears again.
I could see entire lands stretching beneath me; armies moving, clashing, and
returning, cities falling, people laughing, singing, eating, a child praying.
The eerie greens and blues of the lights that sometimes dappled the night burst
with brilliance, more vibrant and beautiful than I had imagined possible. The
world became smaller still, and I could see the trees again, and the sun was no
longer whirling in a blur of light, but a single, solid object stretching
overhead. We were in a land of white, and the trees were white with snow,
dipping crazily as if they would snap in half.
I raised myself
from where I had been clinging to the bear’s neck, my limbs oddly heavy. White
extended as far as the eye could see as I slid quietly off the bear’s back, my
mind still subdued by the incredible journey. It had lasted only moments, but
also a lifetime. I took my hands from the bear’s coat and shivered, the deep
cold scraping through my body.
“I’m sorry,” the
bear murmured. “I forgot how cold you would be.” He leaned forward and breathed
his warm breath across my face. A delightful heat spread through my body, and I
knew that if I began to run I would never have to stop.
“Thank you,” I
whispered, laying my hand gratefully against the bear’s splendid coat.
“Look there,” the
bear nudged my shoulder with its nose, “my wolves come.”
I heard them
before I saw them, long, winsome wails tearing across the sky in a joyous
cacophony. The snow on the trees trembled and tumbled to the fallen snow
beneath, white drifting into white, tearing rambling marks in the pristine
purity. I watched in wonder as the host emerged from the trees, a great
colorless river, whiter than the snow, heads thrown back as they ran. They
tumbled over and beyond each other, their paws only brushing the snow beneath
them.
A figure emerged
from the trees, black against the absolute white of the snow. It raised its
bow, a brown feathered arrow cocked against the string. I cried out as the
shaft surged through the cold air and lodged in the neck of one of the wolves.
The ghostly, joyful howl turned to a yelp of terror as the creature fell, its
body sinking into the snow. Another arrow tore into its side, and I felt a stab
of deep sadness as the creature yelped again.
The wolves
screamed and scattered, terrified by the black form and the fall of their
brother.
My own brother
lowered his bow and trudged grimly toward the motionless wolf, his knife drawn.
He looked haggard and far too thin, as if he had aged since I had seen him only
that morning—but it couldn’t have been that morning anymore, I realized numbly.
More time had passed for Hallgeir than it had for me.
The wolf whined
piteously, its cry rending the crisp air.
“Can’t you help
it?” I pleaded with the bear. “You’re supposed to be the caretaker of these
wolves.”
The bear said
nothing, only watched the fallen wolf as my brother approached, his knife
drawn.
Another figure
appeared from the trees behind Hallgeir, a long, flat dagger glinting heinously
in the brightness of the snow. In an instant, I recognized Thorbrand’s hulking
figure, though he too was only a wraith of the strong warrior he had once been.
A furious heat surged through my body, and I screamed, “Hallgeir, watch out!”
My brother’s head
snapped up and he turned as Thorbrand lunged. The knife scraped along his back,
cleaving through cloth and skin so that the knife came away red, appalling
against the colorlessness of the snow.
I ran, my feet
carrying me across the snow as if I were one of the ghostly wolves. Hallgeir
had come so far. He had tracked and brought down the white wolf on his own. I
could not allow Thorbrand to use his cowardly tricks to take what was my
brother’s by right.
The two men
grappled in the snow, Hallgeir’s blood staining the whiteness a vulgar, garish
red as their black forms clashed and pushed apart and clashed again. Thorbrand
threw himself at Hallgeir and smashed my brother violently into the ground. He
growled, almost bear-like, beating at Hallgeir’s face with his gloved hands.
Hallgeir shrieked in outrage and shoved the larger man away, scrabbling for his
knife in the snow. The white wolf still whimpered helplessly, its pitiful moans
whistling with the icy wind.
I reached the
struggling pair as Thorbrand found Hallgeir’s knife. I screamed, and he
faltered in surprise. Hallgeir was on his feet, and scrabbled to place himself
between Thorbrand and I. Thorbrand hurtled toward me, his knife raised, a snarl
of absolute hatred twisting his face.
Something awoke
within me. As if a gate had opened, a surge of white, like the snow, like the
ghostly wolves, like the bear’s coat, rushed through me, and I felt as if I
were in the stars again, part of their divine singing, part of a world greater
than myself. I was more than myself, and I was filled with myself too. A flash
lit up the sky, whiter than the snow, the wolves, the bear, and I closed my
eyes at its brilliance. My entire body was burning, was on fire, and the
greatness of it was painful and terrible and too beautiful to fathom.
Then it was gone,
and the snow seemed like a sheet of obsidian, dark in comparison with the
brightness.
Thorbrand lay in
the snow, babbling in terror, clawing at his eyes as if to tear them out.
Hallgeir stood beside his adversary, looking at me as if he had seen a draugr.
“What happened?” I
asked breathlessly, and collapsed into the snow.
Thorbrand’s eyes
rolled crazily as he scrambled to his feet. His face shone with a look of such
absolute terror that for the first time in my life, I felt sorry for him.
“Go away,” he
babbled, “I have seen it and I can’t get away. Leave me alone. Just leave me
alone!”
“Thorbrand,” I
said wearily, hoping to calm him, but he only shrunk back in terror. His eyes
rolled back into his head, and for a moment, I thought he had fainted.
Then a voice, more
powerful and full of command than I had ever heard before, boomed across the
snow. “Thorbrand Thorsteinson, you have followed this path of hatred for too
long. Leave this place. Get out.”
Thorbrand
scrambled to his feet and shouted, “I will not, I cannot. Why won’t it go away?
I cannot get it out of my head. Why can’t I get it out of my head?” and with
that chorus he stumbled as fast as he could back into the forest. It was a long
time before the sound of his mad ravings ceased.
I closed my eyes,
exhaustion wrapping my body in a haze. A final whimper from the fallen wolf
brought me back to the world of ice and snow. Hallgeir was on his hands and
knees beside the regal creature, a look of infinite sadness etched into his
tired face. I rose and moved to kneel beside him, my hand resting gently
against his shoulder.
He looked up at
me, eyes full of wonder and relief. “It is done,” he said softly, the
gentleness of his voice like a salve after the wretched screams of Thorbrand.
“It is done,” I
echoed.
I turned my head
to where the bear had been waiting with me as we watched the beauty of the
wolves flowing from the trees, like water over a weary land. It stood, almost
invisible against the snow covered trees, only the black of its nose and its
ancient, sad eyes giving it away. It nodded at me once, as if to echo our
litany, and melted back into the whiteness.
The tingling
warmth of the bear’s breath still glowed in my limbs, and I looked down at my
hands. They were shining faintly. The white light that had blinded me, and
driven Thorbrand to madness—I had felt it when I traveled with the bear, when I
had lived among the stars. It had been in the breath of the bear what warmed
me, but it had been in the wolves and the snow too. It had fluttered in the
mists of White Lake the morning I had first seen the bear, and before that too,
rushing in the air, breathing warmth and goodness into the darkened landscape.
I clenched my fingers in wonder and watched the glow fade away, but the warmth
still remained.
Hallgeir laid his
bleeding hand reverently against the matted fur of the wolf, then stood to his
feet, and lifted the body over his shoulder. The once bright eyes were now dark
and vacant, but as I looked, I thought I saw a wisp of remaining light flicker
out of its body and rise into the frigid air.
I strode proudly
beside my brother, the rightful heir of White Lake, bearing his stained burden,
as we made our way home through the luminous whiteness back to the shadowy
hills. The glow of warmth swelled inside me, and I remembered those hopeful
faces, waiting and trusting for our return.